But right now, it just sucks. This was in my notes from Church this last Sunday. That’s the great thing about my Church, the pastors are truthful. Real. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, but the tunnel itself sucks! This is how I feel about my anxiety/depression. I know God has a reason for it, but it’s not a fun process to go through.
I grew up a 100% daddy’s girl. My dad was my everything. I went to him for the most simplest issue to the most serious. “Dad, do I really need this added to my car or just the oil change?” to “Dad, I’m scared, what do I do?”. He could always bring me down to earth and get rid of my anxiety. My dad loved God above all else. When he called and told me he had oral cancer, my world crumbled. I realized in that time who would be there during trials and that it would be up to me to grow up.
Dealing with my anxiety on my own. No more having dad to go to for answers. This was 4 years ago we learned of his cancer, 3 years since he’s been gone. I am still struggling with my anxiety/depression. My Faith has made huge strides, but I still haven’t found the key to unlock the door to freedom. I truly believe I will overcome this and there is a HUGE reason why it is taking me so long to get to the other side, but being in the middle of it makes it hard to see it from the outside.
They say it all begins with your thoughts. Everything does. The moment you open your eyes in the morning your brain is going. Thoughts are forming. Coming at you in all directions. Supposedly, we have between 50,000-70,000 thoughts per day. Knowing me as being an over-thinker I am probably at 100,000 lol. Those thoughts can be obsessive. Obsessive over anxiety and worry… which in turn makes it all you think about. So you are in this complete cycle. It is true when they say you must take your thoughts captive. “Take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.” – 2 Corinthians 10:5.
“Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.” – Philippians 4:7
Christ knew we would struggle with our thought patterns, otherwise he wouldn’t have had the disciples include these promises in Scripture. I CLING TO THIS HOPE AND THESE PROMISES. I hope you will too! We always have hope friends, even in the midst of trials!